So it’s been almost 3 months since I last logged on to my blog. And I am happy to say that I am back.
I know someone of you ( how ever few that may be ) may have been wondering whether I am a live or not. Well the good new is YES I am alive.
So What Happened, Why Did I Stop Blogging?
I don’t know what happened, except that I got so lazy.
Well, maybe that’s a little bit of a lie. To be honest, I didn’t feel like writing. I felt like I lost my groove, out of touch with reality. Any of you have ever felt that way?
I have to be honest my depression started to loom her ugly head again. Everything started to seem overwhelming from taking care of the laundry or getting my children reading for day camp. And any sort of set back sent me into a spiraling pool of tears. I started to question where my life was going and what is the purpose for everything. You have probably been there, I am sure this happens to all of us once in a while. For me, however, this is all too familiar and it’s a cycle. And I have to just ride it out, there is no other way around it.
My lonely blog started to scream for my attention!
Are you still there?
Yes I am !
Yes this post is all about me, and it’s most probably really boring as well. What the heck, it’s not like I have a professional blog right? I can choose to be a little self –indulgent ? Plus, I figured this would be a good way to get back into blogging again, being brutally honest. After a long absence, I just couldn’t start writing about ‘how to write a killer post’ or ‘six tips to feel good’ or something like that which I am sure are very worthy topics, but didn’t seem like ideal ones for someone that is on the mend from a bought of depression.
I was scared to look at my blog, fearing all the fellow bloggers to have given up on me. This is a very scary feeling, it hasn’t been long since I have become a ‘blogger’ and its no fun without having supportive, kind fellow bloggers who actually take the time out to read but – comment. Hope you are reading this.
Blogging is hard
So… last night I thought, why not write exactly about how I feel. So, that’s precisely what I have done. It didn’t seem that hard. I guess the hard part is done, or is it? Or is the hard part hitting publish and waiting to see if anyone actually out their read this post.
Now if I can only start participating in other blogs, add new bogs that I haven’t gotten to just yet, go back to researching and learning a hundred things to make my blog ‘better’, and pick up a book … I will be alright.
Have you ever taken a break from your blog? Did you find it hard to start again? Do share, as I can so relate right now. And I do need the support.