I may not be original but I am always authentic. Since the inception of this blog, I have aspired to have an authentic voice. I want this blog to be a vehicle to express my feelings, my hopes and my dreams. I want to dig deep and express my uniqueness, and inspire others to find their authenticity. This post actually was inspired by a survey that Khloe Kardashian had taken and posted on her blog. I was surprised by the authenticity of her answers, and it roused a desire for me to do the same. I hope thatI can, in turn, inspire others to take this survey and reveal what makes them authentic.
1. WHAT WAS THE MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT YOU EXPERIENCED AS A KID?
When I was little and all my friends would be in their bathing suits at the beach or pool parties or at summer camp, I would always be the chubby one. I never felt comfortable. I was the one who always wore shorts over her bathing suite, so self conscious about my thighs.
I was always chubby as a child, but it got worse after I went through puberty at age 12. There was one incident I remember vividly when a sale woman really hurt my self esteem. I was trying on a dress, she shook her head and said “such a shame you have a pretty face, but you need to lose weight.” People can be so cruel. From that point on, I felt as if my whole worth depended on my weight. I hated to look at myself in the mirror. I was so afraid to talk to boys for fear of them making fun of my weight.
2. WHAT WAS YOUR CHILDHOOD DREAM?
In all honesty, my childhood dream was to be a doctor, I always wanted to help people. I was always fascinated by the human body. I saw how people looked up to doctors and I thought maybe if I became a doctor people would be nicer to me.
3. WHO WERE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?
If you ever watched the Breakfast Club, I was Ally Sheedy’s character. I was the basket case. I was the one that was always hiding in the back ground. The one that did not have any friends. The one that felt left out, and who just didn’t seem to fit in.
High school was an extremely hard time for me. I didn’t even go to my senior prom and I was picked upon and bullied. If I could go back in time, and talk to my younger self, I would tell her to stop worrying about what other people think of you. I would tell her to go and ask Mr. Popular to prom and don’t worry if he says no. I would tell her to smile more and cry less. And that in the end the suffering will be worth it.
4. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF, NOW?
I am definitely not that young impressionable girl anymore. I have grown up and gained the confidence that I so desperately lacked in high school. I am no longer that basket case. I am many things now! In my family, I think I’m the Glue, but I can also be a Pushover—especially when it comes to my two boys. I can also be an athlete, which I would not have used to describe myself in high school. I can also be a bit of a Social Butterfly now, believe it or not!
But most of all I am ME, and proud of it!