Well hello all. How was your week? Mine has been extremely busy. As I mentioned in many of my post, I am the coordinator for Healthy Kids Running Series (HKRS) in my town, which is starting TODAY. This is the first time I have ever run an event of this magnitude, and as of 2:30pm today we are at 103 children. Since this race has become so large I have been dealing with anxiety and also having some self esteem issues.
I will talk about self esteem a little later, but first I want to go over my weekly work out. As always when I get busy with projects, my work outs and running suffers. I have not been able to work out as much, but I have increased my mileage during each work out. My average mileage actually went from 3 to 5 miles. As usual, I am hooking up with HoHo from HoHo Runs and Tricia from MissSippiPiddlin, for their weekly link up. The purpose of their link up is to connect with and support other active women.
So here is the actual break down of my activities for the past week.
|Tuesday:||rest , work 9-5|
|Thursday:||PiYo Class, met Cameron|
So let’s talk a little about self esteem. I find when I am extremely stressed (like running this HKRS) I am more susceptible to low self esteem. I hear myself staying one of the following statements
- I am powerless
- Life is not easy; it’s always a struggle
- If I try, I will fail.
- I don’t matter.
- I should always look good and put together for others to like me.
- I need to be a certain size or weight to be worthy.
- I need to have X, Y or Z to feel successful.
- I can’t cope with the demands of the outside world.
- I am not good enough and I never have been.
- I will never be worthy of love or respect.
Do you ever find yourself thinking any of those statements above? As hard as this may be to admit, there is power in acknowledging that you have these beliefs. When you are able to identify the root for these toxic thoughts of low self-esteem, you have a much better grasp on how untrue they really are.
Dealing with low self esteem
Try to examine where your thoughts of low self esteem first came from. Many of your mistaken beliefs, may have come from your peers, the media, what you were told was “pretty” by television and the images that bombard you in your daily life. Maybe it stems from your childhood, demanding parents/grandparents, friends, an unpleasant experience. The origins for these negative thoughts are so variable, and so
When you become aware of how these thoughts became stuck in your mind, you are better able to attack them when they come up. The more and more you practice, it’s like treating the ivy with chemicals. Each time you spray, it may not go away, but it is slowly killing the root. Overtime, the real you, the empowered you, becomes more visible. When you catch a new bud or leaf starting to grow, you can stop it in its tracks. Knowing and understanding the root cause of your low self esteem is the best way to grow a more positive sense of self.